Monday, June 28, 2010

9 years ago

9 years ago today was the day that i gave my life over to the Lord. i remember it exactly and it has been such an amazing journey since that day.

amazing, grace-filled journey. full of bumps and bruises. and joy and tears. and learning. so much learning. that will never ever end.

hebrews 10:32-36

"remember those earlier days after you had received the light, when you stood your ground in a great contest in the face of suffering. sometimes you were publicly exposed to insult and persecution; at other times you stood side by side with those who were so treated. you sympathized with those in prison and joyfully accepted the confiscation of your property, because you knew that you yourselves had better and lasting possessions."

"so do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. you will need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised."

i remember what it was like when i first started following the Lord. so fresh and new. and exciting. i was such a child of the Lord. in my ways of thinking. but i leaned on Him so much in the beginning because it was so new. i just ate everything up and learned so much.

i often think of how i want my life to reflect how i once was when i first really learned what it meant to be a Christ-follower. not that i want to revert back and forget all that i have learned along my journey. more so, i want to automatically depend on the Lord without even thinking of it. i find myself putting other things in the forefront of my mind so often. and i want nothing more than to have that child-like faith of trusting my Father and leaning on Him because you know nothing different. it's what children do...rely on their parents. to take care of them. and to teach them. and to discipline and correct them. to mold them.

so as i think back today, sitting in a bunk bed 9 years ago on june 28th, i can't help but think of all that i have learned. but also wanting to not lose that child-like dependence on the Lord. that fresh outlook on my walk with my Father.

happy Jesus birthday shan.
keep fighting and pushing and being molded in a woman of Christ.