first resolution

hello dear readers...

i have yet to share some of my resolutions with you (i seriously think i have about 20 of them), but i wanted to share a little with you tonight on my first resolution, which is...

*to grow to love the Lord even more, to live my life as a reflection of his grace and joy, and to grow in his wisdom.

As i wrote that resolution, i had a distinct view of what wisdom was in my head (and soon figured out that it was kind of a warped view). as A was reading from the book of job the other night, he came across a verse that spoke to him. we later talked about that verse...

'The fear of the Lord—that is wisdom,
and to shun evil is understanding.'

just a few days after i made that resolution in my heart, the Lord shattered what i thought growing in wisdom looked like. in my mind (and probably not correctly) i seemed to put wisdom and smartness together as one in the same. and pretty quickly, the Lord changed that view. (how awesome is it that?)

so my new resolution looks more like this...

*to grow to love the Lord even more, to live my life as a reflection of his grace and joy, and understand how to become a woman who fears the Lord.

that is the kind of wisdom that i want. i do not wish to become smarter. i wish to become fearful.

to develop a reverent fear of our lord is something that might be hard to grasp for me. but i pray that the Lord writes this verse on my heart and continues to teach me what it looks like to be a wise woman who fears the Lord.

i hope to share this journey with you blogland as the Lord teaches me.

until next time...