Wednesday, November 18, 2009

difficult

difficult would be the word that i would use to describe how some of my days are becoming down here in SC. i have been here for about 3 months now and the "newness" is wearing off. now i am dealing with the move. and it is hard.

this week, i have begun to re-read Job and i came across this...

"Shall we accept good from God, and not trouble?" {Job 2:10}

In reading this, i realize how selfish i am. In good times, i am quick to turn and thank the Lord for his blessing. However, during these rough few months of my life, i can easily turn into a bitter or sad (or mad) girl. why not praise Him (or at least draw closer to Him) during a time of such great need? i'm not sure. i'm still working on that. i knew this all before but it is a reality for me at this point in my life. and now i am being forced to face this reality. how will my life be in these next few months as i battle the desire to just give up and go home? i don't want to be bitter or unpleasent. it is hard not to be. part of me just wants to crawl up into a selfish little ball until the hard times go away. but i know better. i am going to work on giving up my sadness (and sometimes bitterness) to the Lord. prayers would be appreciated my friends...

5 comments:

Adventures of a CrAzY LaDy! said...

I feel ya and I'm praying for you - I feel the sadness and hard times of a move also...it's not as easy as you think it will be...but God's got us Girl!

Anne said...

Shannon, we miss you here lots in Lexington, but I know God has so many awesome plans for you in Greenville, too. I will definitely be praying for you :)

Jen said...

aw shan! i know that things are tough right now but just remember that the lord called you to go down to SC and live your life {to the fullest} down there {for now anyway}. if he called you to do that you know that he has plans in that. easier said than done but try to have foresight KNOWING that roots grow deeper in dry ground. when things are difficult you have the opportunity to depend 100% on the Lord and on the other side of the trial come out having a much deeper relationship with your Father than ever before.

I'm praying for you tons: for your heart to be at peace & for the Lord to speak all kinds of love, comfort & truth into your life.

LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY!
Jen
ps- i totally sympathize with curling up in a selfish ball...that's totally me.

Rachel said...

I will be praying for you and Kari! I miss both of you!

Margo said...

"Keep calm and carry on" - Shannon, you are the one who told me about that British motto from World War II. It's so relevant, even in today's world!

I really do believe that God has wonderful plans for you.

Hang in there, darling! We love you so much!

Momma Bear & Pops