difficult

difficult would be the word that i would use to describe how some of my days are becoming down here in SC. i have been here for about 3 months now and the "newness" is wearing off. now i am dealing with the move. and it is hard.

this week, i have begun to re-read Job and i came across this...

"Shall we accept good from God, and not trouble?" {Job 2:10}

In reading this, i realize how selfish i am. In good times, i am quick to turn and thank the Lord for his blessing. However, during these rough few months of my life, i can easily turn into a bitter or sad (or mad) girl. why not praise Him (or at least draw closer to Him) during a time of such great need? i'm not sure. i'm still working on that. i knew this all before but it is a reality for me at this point in my life. and now i am being forced to face this reality. how will my life be in these next few months as i battle the desire to just give up and go home? i don't want to be bitter or unpleasent. it is hard not to be. part of me just wants to crawl up into a selfish little ball until the hard times go away. but i know better. i am going to work on giving up my sadness (and sometimes bitterness) to the Lord. prayers would be appreciated my friends...